Sunday, February 28, 2016

The World Outside My Door

Published on: Jul 2, 2007

As you may know from reading this blog, I’ve been studying Italian….not just the language, but all things Italian. I’ve managed to master three semesters of university-level classes in less than a year, so I’m feeling quite pleased by that. But it’s not enough. Somehow this interest has become a hunger, a passion that is not easily sated by taking classes in an American university, reading books about Italy or watching movies in Italian. I still feel too far removed from the longing I have to be immersed in Italian culture and life.

I’m not sure where this longing came from, or why….I only know that I want to honor it as best I can. I just finished auditing an intensive intermediate course at the university here, which helped to cement some of the grammar that had been eluding me. Being in class for two hours each day for an entire month was a godsend. In addition, I have several pen pals in Italy that I converse with each week through Skype, a free online program that allows us to talk together through the wizardry of internet connections. Thirty minutes in Italian, thirty minutes in English, so we each get to practice the languages we’re learning. I have several other pen pals that I write to nearly every day. We correct each other’s mistakes and learn about each other’s lives and cultures in the process of our sharing. Most of my pen pals have become good friends by now, and I treasure these connections.

It stands to reason that I can’t get enough of reading books by English-speaking people who have moved to or lived in Italy, as this is the root of my desire. For as long as I can remember, I’ve wanted to live in another culture and become fluent in a language other than my own. I want to experience the culture as deeply as I can, to understand the nuances that only natives are privy to.

My favorite author along these lines is Marlena de Blasi, an American who married a man from Venice and has lived with him in the city of Venice, and the regions of Tuscany and Umbria. I’m currently reading her most recent book, The Lady in the Palazzo, about their life in Orvieto, an ancient city in Umbria. This quote from the book exquisitely expresses my own sentiments:

“I’d thought, you see, that one of the best things about going to live in another country would be the chance to be ten years old again….Everything fresh, untested. Learn to speak and think and dream in another language. To see how the new people sip their tea, break their bread, treat each other. Not just a passage through, not a wander among the natives but setting up with them. I knew that to be at home in the world was the way to grow rich. The way I wanted to be rich.”

Like the author, I don’t want to see Italy as a tourist, removed from the subtleties of Italian culture. I want to know, as best I can, what it means to be Italian. Alas, even if I spend the rest of my life working towards this goal, I may only scratch the surface. But I’m willing to make the effort, whatever the outcome. I’m not yet sure how I’m going to manage it, but it’s my intention to live in Italy, at least part of the year, for the express purpose of attending to this longing that has guided my life for the past year. It’s been a magical adventure so far, filled with unexpected gems of friendship and jewels of knowledge that leave me eager to delve deeper, to learn more, to be immersed in the experience of being “at home in the world.” 

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